I'm listening to the sounds of cartoons and bubbles rustling around in the goldfish tank. They have gotten to be so big. I'm eating Charro beans I made yesterday. Just a note: charro beans are the best leftovers ever.
I just got engaged and I couldn't be happier about it! However, everything else seems to be falling apart. I mean literally falling apart. My Toyota has been on the fritz, my fiancé is now going to receive $400 less each month, I'm living off of food stamps and my job stinks! I need a new one but I can't think of anything that can fit my schedule! School, work, 8 year old son, 2 step children.... this is not getting any easier. I need to step it up. Any suggestions?
Real job. I have to be a real grownup. How strange to be 25 years old and to say, 'come on Babs! time go grow up now.' Am I afraid to take a leap? Am I worried about what may happen if I fail? When I was young everything was easier because I was the best at everything I did. I was the top in choir and drama, and the most creative in journalism, one of the best writers in my class, I received mathematical recognition senior year....blah blah blah, the list goes on.
Now I feel very small and I am holding back so much. I have a lot to offer. Well....
my fiancé is fixing the transmission on the car right now, so that's a start right?
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